Maybe I’m a little addicted
Maybe I just Can’t get out of this
Maybe it is just too soon to say

I’ve seen you blow right past my window
You flew away and I was left inside
Without a clue

But If you think that I am too stoned to write
Don’t think twice

Free your mind
Don’t let me down
We’ll find a way to make it go away

I went ahead without direction
A form of semi-self-mutilation
Dragonfly collides with truth

Why can’t you see me like I see you
Can’t you feel me like I feel you
Can’t you be with me tonight

I’ll make it go away
(my dragonfly)

The Past Is Gone
by Doesn’t Matter

The past is gone
to never return
we live, we love,
and we all must learn.

Love can be painful
but can also be great,
sometimes wind up regretting
and sometimes we hate.

No matter the reason
no matter the rhyme
forgiveness is essential
and it may take time.

As the time passes
the brighter the light
the darkness once haunted
eventually seems bright.

The time is now
for the past is gone
who’s to say love
is right or wrong. 

Thank you is the best words I can say to the person who catch me when I started to fall from the inequities of life. The world started to turn against me but here is a person who was willing to comfort, care, and love me for who I am.Impossible, as it may seem but it is indeed possible with people who truly love. We are in a world full of challenges and trials and it is up to us whether we could or could not survive. You are more than I am thankful of, you are not just somebody to me but a blessing from God. Realizing that we could possibly love each other is more than enough to conquer the world and build our own world. Our world wherein we could do whatever we want to do. A world wherein we are always true to our emotions. A world wherein happiness is the main source of living. A world wherein in only us could hear everything what are heart is shouting.It is but painful to have so many reasons around why we cant be together right now but I am happy that even though we are far from each other we still belong together. To trust you when you are too far. To kiss you goodnight through the stars. To hug you tight through pillows around. And to whisper I love you encourage by the dancing winds around. Here are the thoughts I wish you probably feels.Before, I said that we could describe things thru our emotions not just our senses because I believe that sometimes what our heart feels our senses couldn’t sense. We may not see each other often, nor touch each hands together, nor smell the perfume of each ones body, nor hear sweet hellos and hi from one another, nor taste the lips of each other, but one thing I am sure of we both feel the love for one another. Patience is testing our relationship that though we don’t see each other often we still have time to express our feelings. Our actions may be vulgar sometimes but we are still ready to fight the consequences of our actions by the power of the so-called love.The love you are sharing with me is so intense that even though you are not here with me I still feel your presence around. To be with you is more than I could offer and to love you is more that I am willing to give my all my life. Ending these paramount emotion is still the words Thank You!

“Sometimes you will feel that you are an outcast… but you will never be alone!” – Superman

In the midst of nowhere I am here to found. A place where everything is new and everything is unreal. Adjusting myself to an agenda where no one knows you, no one cares, and no one belongs. It seems like I enter into a world full of sadness and emptiness. It is so impossible to move in and out to where I want to go because everything has its limits. Everything has its bounds and everything has its restrictions. The world where then I grew, the world where then I belong, the world where then happiness is found, the world where then smiles are wide, and the world where then cries are covered with laughter and joy. Those days are over, looking back to the past is a way of looking forward to a Utopia. I imagine myself walking to a world where everyone is a friend, where everyone cares, where everyone seems to accept you for who you are. I am not asking or demanding a perfect place to live in but a place where one could feel their own happiness and satisfaction. Now, I am nowhere to go and no one to run to. I am nowhere to found and nowhere to hide. My heart wants to burst and shout the pain that undergo inside. I feel that any moment in time someone would harass me and put me to shame. When this day comes the people I cared and loved hopefully will reach their hands and pull me from the dying body.There will never be tomorrow if you neglect today. What is happening is a sort of a trial, a challenge, or somewhat a test to who really am I. I am asking myself what I have done wrong to experience the pain, what have I done erroneously, that made me suffer a lot. I was just trying to put my motives into its way, good motives as it may seem, but time wont allow me to do so. All my mistakes and all my faults were already admitted and felt sorry for everything. Facing the consequences of my actions are the hardest part of my life, I barely even have the courage to face someone or somebody in front of me. No time and space for proving myself. And no room for another chance.Drowned in a middle of nowhere. Escaped from the darkness of hell. Damned to those who didn’t care. But exultation to the people who dare. So why would I possibly despair where I know in the end there are still people who are willing to conquer the world with me and will give me more reasons to be happy and live accordingly.Alone or not alone, what is important is the idea that you know you are right and you know that whether the world turns against you, look above, there is a hand willing to pull you up and put you down to where you belong.

Why in the world that when you learn to love somebody it is also the time to set the person free. Too much ironies in life but why not make it lesser for love. I felt guilty not showing how much I care for the person I love. I took advantage of his love and now I regret the day I deny him in front of the crowd. I despise myself for causing him so much pain. He did his part making me the most important person of his life but I neglected all his actions. It took me a lot of courage to make break-ups real. The reason of this move is that I am guilty of my faults, mistakes and pain I’m causing him. Honestly, the memories are still there. I can still feel the heat of his love wrapping into my arms. I can still smell the aroma of his body moving towards me. And I can still taste the sweetness of his lips enticing mine to love him more than everyone could ever know. The pictures lasts but the memories wont… Every time I look into the past opening the chapter of my life with him being part of it, tears fall down from my eyes flowing into my cheeks and my hands trying to catch it up before it will go. To cry for the person you truly love is something undeniable. Crying is the only way to outburst my emotions. He left me empty-handed. With no reasons to return. No crossroads to cross. And no roads to block. Sometimes we have to forget the person we did love. In life we live, we learn, we love, and then we move on. That’s the process of it. Life goes on no matter what happens, no matter how it causes you, and no matter what and how it changes you and your life only to survive the imperial world. Sad. But true.

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.You never know who this people maybe (possibly your officemate, neighbor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know that at any moment they will affect your life in some profound way.And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul.Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart.If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but in a way, they are teaching you to love and to open your heart and eyes to things.Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your heights high.Hold your head up coz you have every right to.Tell yourself that you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don’t believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you.You can make your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.Most importantly, if you love someone let it be known…Given a LIFE is a blessing… living a life is a choice.

What went wrong is the question that popped up in my mind when I am thinking about you or should I say about us. It all started with an ideal intuition. Hoping the possibilities that whatever pains and struggles we experienced, we could get through with it. Heaven as I see it when we were together, no worries and doubts, no cries and goodbyes. But when time goes by everything changed, a changed that turned every dream into a nightmare perhaps.  As the wind blows in the coldest night, it is you who is always on my mind. It has been you all along I am thinking about. And it is in your heart the key to make me whole again. Set me free from the memories of you. Please let me see the real world and the real me. I am so blinded by the thoughts that I do love you so much and willing to risk everything for you and your own happiness. I felt restrictions knowing that we cannot be together. I realized that it is not the perfect love at the perfect time but an imperfectly perfect love at the perfect time. I remember when you said that we build a foundation that no one can destroy even if it’s the fierce of nature; yes I do still remember your words. How I wish that time will lead us again to where it all began, to where our story was written in the book of love, and to where time allowed us to be together.  It seems to be that the people around know us so well that they even barely have the guts to judge our love to each one and or our relationship. Let us allow them to think what they want to think but let us not give them reasons to triumph over their acts. There is no one to be blame and no one to confront, because it is only us who knows the real story of our life and it is only Him who can judge us from the inequities of this forsaken world. The things that had happened needs no explanation for it is itself the answer to who they are and who they were. If we are to be affected by the flow of intrigues it will be us who will lose the battle life. It doesn’t matter what others may say nor what others may do to us, they could act to what they believe is correct and likewise we do the same. Love is not a matter of others thinking what is right but instead it is a matter of what the couple believes is right.  Those yesterday’s feelings will forever remain in me. The love you share and the care will never despair because tonight I lay down my hands to you. The decision is yours to make, it may hurt or it may not, just do what it takes to make you happy, contented, and satisfied. Looking back the things we have done refreshes everything that makes life fun. Our love story may not be the most famous of them all but surely it will be the greatest and will stand among the rest.  Now, give me more valid reasons to forget you because until now I really cant find the reason in failing to remember you. The last time we talked made me feel how important I am to you, that even in my scariest moment you are still willing to stay beside me. You never fail to make me feel special and never did you fall short of showing how much you love me. To me you are not just anybody but a ‘somebody’ I could always think of. To me it is always you who is my priority and not just an option. And to me whatever lines will break and whatever color turns gray, it will always be you that will make my day. Never will I forget the time I called you my own. The moment when your arms wrap around me in the midst of nowhere and the thought that you and I will be together for the rest of our life. Tears fall down to my eyes as I am writing this grudge I feel inside. I have made lots of letters for you but this is the deepest of them all. Every word is meant to be true and every paragraph may leave a memory unto you. I am not expecting you to react to every deliberation I am making but this only leads to something… it is from my heart that still cries I do love you so much and I am more than willing to take all the risk just to make you the very best part of my life. Here is a portion of a song I want to share from Matchbook Romance entitled Promise; what would you say if i asked you not to go
to forget everyone, forget everything and start over with me
would you take my hand and never let me go
promise me you’ll never let me go
and the stars aren’t out tonight,
but neither are we to look up at them
why does hello feel like goodbye?
these memories can’t replace,
these wishes i wished and these dreams i chased
take this broken heart and make it right
i feel like i lost everything when you’re gone
left remembering what it’s like to have you here with me
i thought you should know,
you’re not making this easy
i never thought i’d be the one to say
please don’t leave me
i thought you should know,
you’re not making this easy
i never thought i’d be the one to say
please don’t, please don’t leave me.From the moment I knew you I have been true and from the moment I have loved you my heart belongs to you. I don’t know what will happens next. Am I looking forward to nothing but emptiness or will I ever take back the memories we have shared and live a life of fulfillness? No one knows and no one is courageous enough to tell what will happen next. But one thing is certain, I have loved you, and will always love you.

I’ve learned-
that we don’t have to change friends
if we understand that friends change. I’ve learned-
that no matter how good a friend is,
they’re going to hurt you every
once in a while and you must forgive
them for that I’ve learned-
that true friendship continues to grow,
even over the longest distance.
Same goes for true love.

I’ve learned-
that you can do something in an instant
that will give you heartache for life.

I’ve learned-
that it’s taking me a long time
to become the person I want to be.

I’ve learned-
that you should always leave loved ones
with loving words.  It may be the last
time you see them.

I’ve learned-
that you can keep going
long after you can’t.

I’ve learned-
that we are responsible for what we do,
no matter how we feel.

I’ve learned-
that either you control your attitude
or it controls you.

I’ve learned-
that regardless of how hot and
steamy a relationship is at first,
the passion fades and there had
better be something else to take
its place.

I’ve learned-
that heroes are the people
when it needs to be done,
regardless of the consequences.

I’ve learned-
that money is a lousy way of keeping score.
that my best friend and I can do anything
or nothing and have the best time.

I’ve learned-
that sometimes the people you expect
to kick you when you’re down,
will be the ones to help you get back up.

I’ve learned-
that sometimes when I’m angry
I have the right to be angry,
but that doesn’t give me
the right to be cruel.

I’ve learned-
that just because someone doesn’t love
you the way you want them to doesn’t
mean they don’t love you with all they have.

I’ve learned-
that maturity has more to do with
what types of experiences you’ve had
and what you’ve learned from them
and less to do with how many
birthdays you’ve celebrated.

I’ve learned-
that it isn’t always enough to be
forgiven by others.  Sometimes you
have to learn to forgive yourself.

I’ve learned-
that no matter how bad your heart is broken
the world doesn’t stop for your grief.

I’ve learned-
that our background and circumstances
may have influenced who we are,
but we are responsible for who we become.

I’ve learned-
that just because two people argue,
it doesn’t mean they don’t love each other
And just because they don’t argue,
it doesn’t mean they do.

I’ve learned-
that you shouldn’t be so eager to find out a
secret.  It could change your life forever.

I’ve learned-
that two people can look at the exact
same thing and see something totally different.

I’ve learned-
that your life can be changed in a matter of
hours by people who don’t even know you.

I’ve learned-
that even when you think you have no more
to give, when a friend cries out to you
you will find the strength to help.

I’ve learned-
that credentials on the wall
do not make you a decent human being.

I’ve learned-
that the people you care about most in life
are taken from you too soon.