Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming. Just keep swimming, swimming swimming. What do we do? We swim, swim, swim.

 

Sounds Familiar? It is familiar! These are the famous lines of Dory, a regal tang that Marlin bumps into while pursuing the boat that is carrying his son, Nemo in the movie Finding Nemo.

 

Why am I saying this? I just find these words very encouraging.

 

Sometimes in our life, we can’t do things the way we wanted to. Drowned in a situation where light seems so unreachable, and a state where it’s so unpredictable.

 

I am always caught up in a situation asking myself “what shall I do now?” Words boggling into my head just won’t dare to stop. I don’t even have a chance to give the right answers when someone’s talking to me. It seems like everything is going too far behind me.

 

In the office -  Have you ever experienced your Boss asking you to do something and in that something, behind your mind seems so impossible? Me? A lot of times! I remember one of my friend told me “Yung Boss natin parang umo-order lang ng ulam sa carinderia, parang andali dali ng pinapagawa.” Well, imagine how we managed such things!!! (trying really really hard!) But of course, the good thing is, if we are able to do what he asked us to do, wow man it is heaven. Because somehow, somewhere it boosted my confidence with a sigh saying, “Galing, nagawa ko. Kaya ko pala!” Huh! Thank God there’s a good thing their!

 

In relationships – How many times your heart got burned out and felt the pain inside? How many times your eyes cried? How many times you felt you’re empty-handed? How many times you failed in a relationship? Hey, there’s no such thing as a “counter” for love. Not every time you entered into a relationship gives you a credit when you failed, cried and felt the pain. That’s just how love is, if you can’t feel the pain, you are not loving anymore. However, the best part of loving is that, it generates! Sometimes we may lose some… but most of the time we gain. In loving there is no losing, if in any case you lose at least you played and learned for good. Life goes on… and it goes until the deepest part of the ocean. So go on, keep loving. That’s the best part of living.

 

In friends – believe me or not, out of the hundred friends you call “friends” only four or five people are true to you. In a month we meet an average of eight people that makes it to 92 in a year. But unfortunately not all of these are meant to be real. Who cares anyway? As long as you have one…two…three… honest people, now that’s real treasure. Sometimes in friendship, quantity doesn’t count, but quality does! So worry no more if you can’t please them all, just be thankful you have enough friends that when in times of trouble, joy, pain, and tears they are there to be with you. What else, life goes on… And true friends live forever.

 

What about in your family? Decisions… decisions… decisions… what am I up to? Nothing! Because in my own home, it is where my heart is, that’s according to the old Wizard of Oz. Home is my Utopia, especially in my bed. It is where I find peace, I find comfort, and I find satisfaction – during in my deepest sleep of course. They are the lifesavers or life vest in my swim of life. They allow me to live the gains and to survive the pains. Huh! Very tough… Tsk! Tsk! Tsk! But at least my family is my most treasured possession.

 

Consider this, we are like the fishes in the ocean, we tend to lose direction, caught up by a net, or can be freed out, but the best thing is that we can just keep swimming, swimming, swimming…

5110, 3210, 3310, 3350, T610, 6600, at 6680. Iyan lang naman ang mga unit ng phone na dumaan sa palad ko. Bakit ko sinasabi ito? Wala lang gusto ko lang i-share kahit hindi siya related sa topic ko. Tulad ng pag-ibig, maraming beses ito dumadaan sa palad natin… Ngunit ang tanong pag-ibig nga ba ito kung hindi naman ninyo nakakatuluyan ang mga sinasabi niyong taong minahal o mahal niyo? Cellphone narin ba ang turing mo sa pag-ibig na nadarama mo? Bakit nga ba napaka komplikado ng buhay? Minsan naiisip ko tuloy, nagiging unfair si Lord. Pero hindi rin eh. Asa sa atin naman yun kung ano ba ang gagawin natin sa ating buhay. Lalo na sa buhay pag-ibig. Kung ating tutuusin napakaraming kwento ng pag-ibig. Minsan nagsisimula sa drama, minsan sa komedy, minsan pa nga sa away eh. Ngunit sa kabila ng sari saring kwentong ito iisa lang ang nais nitong itumbok. Lahat tayo may kakayanan na magmahal. Ang pagmamahal na ito ay may iba’t ibang uri. Pagmamahal sa pamilya, pagmamahal sa kapwa, pagmamahal sa Diyos, at higit sa lahat pagmamahal sa taong pinakaespesyal sa iyo. Minsan dumarating tayo sa punto na ayaw na nating magmahal. Bakit? Dahil ayaw nating masaktan. Ilang beses na ba napadugo ng pag-ibig ang ating mga puso? Ilang beses na ba nito pinaiyak ang mga ating mata? Ilang beses pa ba itong magmamaka awa na tama na ang mga pasakit? At ilang beses pa itong magsusumigaw na mahal mo talaga siya at nagpapakatotoo ka? Napakaraming katanungan. Napakaraming pag-aalinlanagan. Ngunit sa kabila nito masayang magmahal. Masayang maging masaya kapag kapiling mo ang taong mahal mo. At higit sa lahat masayang mahal ka ng taong mahal mo.  Yun naman pala eh. Kahit masakit may kapalit na saya. Kahit mahirap may kapalit na ligaya. Kahit ano pang hinanakit sa pag ibig mapapawi lahat ito ng taong umiibig ng totoo. Nakakatawang isipin na ganito kagulo ang magmahal. Hindi man natin napapansin minsan unti unti narin tayong umiibig sa ideya ng pag-ibig mismo. Nakakaligtaan natin na yung tao ang pinapahalagahan at hindi ang salitang pag-ibig mismo.  Sa pagbuo ba ng isang relasyon may tama bang paraan na maari mong sundan? Paraan kung sa tingin mo tama ang tinatahak ninyong daan?  Haaay buhay, pagdating sa pag ibig napakaraming katanungan. Isa lang ang masasabi ko, hindi ibig sabihin na hindi dahil hindi mo nakatuluyan ang taong minahal mo hindi na pag-ibig iyon, nagkataon lang na pag-ibig parin iyon sa maling panahon at maling pagkakataon. Hindi ibig sabihin nagkaroon ka na ng bago kakalimutan mo na ang nakaraan mo. Ang nakaraan mo ang magtuturo sa iyo sa mga bagay bagay para sa kasalukuyang pag-ibig mo kung meron man.  Masakit, masarap, mahirap, Masaya, ano pa man naranasan mo ano pa man pinag daanan mo lahat ito ay may dahilan sa buhay mo. Di mo pa man nakikita sa ngayon kung ano ang dahilan na ito ngunit baling araw magpapasalamat ka sa mga pagkakataong napagdaanan mo. Ganyan ang buhay pag-ibig. Mahirap talaga ipaliwanag. Maging ang pinakamatalinong nilalang sa mundo hindi niya ito mabibigyan ng perpektong kahulugan. Iba’t ibang tao iba’t ibang ibig sabihin. Iba’t ibang karanasan iba’t ibang kahulugan.  

Ginawa ng Diyos ang pag-ibig para tayo maging kumpleto at para maging totoong tao. Kaya huwag natin itong abusuhin bagama’t pahalagahan natin ang pusong umiibig upang sa gayon patuloy parin tayong maging buo.

 Maybe I’m a little addicted
Maybe I just Can’t get out of this
Maybe it is just too soon to say

I’ve seen you blow right past my window
You flew away and I was left inside
Without a clue

But If you think that I am too stoned to write
Don’t think twice

Free your mind
Don’t let me down
We’ll find a way to make it go away

I went ahead without direction
A form of semi-self-mutilation
Dragonfly collides with truth

Why can’t you see me like I see you
Can’t you feel me like I feel you
Can’t you be with me tonight

I’ll make it go away
(my dragonfly)

The Past Is Gone
by Doesn’t Matter

The past is gone
to never return
we live, we love,
and we all must learn.

Love can be painful
but can also be great,
sometimes wind up regretting
and sometimes we hate.

No matter the reason
no matter the rhyme
forgiveness is essential
and it may take time.

As the time passes
the brighter the light
the darkness once haunted
eventually seems bright.

The time is now
for the past is gone
who’s to say love
is right or wrong. 

Thank you is the best words I can say to the person who catch me when I started to fall from the inequities of life. The world started to turn against me but here is a person who was willing to comfort, care, and love me for who I am.Impossible, as it may seem but it is indeed possible with people who truly love. We are in a world full of challenges and trials and it is up to us whether we could or could not survive. You are more than I am thankful of, you are not just somebody to me but a blessing from God. Realizing that we could possibly love each other is more than enough to conquer the world and build our own world. Our world wherein we could do whatever we want to do. A world wherein we are always true to our emotions. A world wherein happiness is the main source of living. A world wherein in only us could hear everything what are heart is shouting.It is but painful to have so many reasons around why we cant be together right now but I am happy that even though we are far from each other we still belong together. To trust you when you are too far. To kiss you goodnight through the stars. To hug you tight through pillows around. And to whisper I love you encourage by the dancing winds around. Here are the thoughts I wish you probably feels.Before, I said that we could describe things thru our emotions not just our senses because I believe that sometimes what our heart feels our senses couldn’t sense. We may not see each other often, nor touch each hands together, nor smell the perfume of each ones body, nor hear sweet hellos and hi from one another, nor taste the lips of each other, but one thing I am sure of we both feel the love for one another. Patience is testing our relationship that though we don’t see each other often we still have time to express our feelings. Our actions may be vulgar sometimes but we are still ready to fight the consequences of our actions by the power of the so-called love.The love you are sharing with me is so intense that even though you are not here with me I still feel your presence around. To be with you is more than I could offer and to love you is more that I am willing to give my all my life. Ending these paramount emotion is still the words Thank You!

“Sometimes you will feel that you are an outcast… but you will never be alone!” – Superman

In the midst of nowhere I am here to found. A place where everything is new and everything is unreal. Adjusting myself to an agenda where no one knows you, no one cares, and no one belongs. It seems like I enter into a world full of sadness and emptiness. It is so impossible to move in and out to where I want to go because everything has its limits. Everything has its bounds and everything has its restrictions. The world where then I grew, the world where then I belong, the world where then happiness is found, the world where then smiles are wide, and the world where then cries are covered with laughter and joy. Those days are over, looking back to the past is a way of looking forward to a Utopia. I imagine myself walking to a world where everyone is a friend, where everyone cares, where everyone seems to accept you for who you are. I am not asking or demanding a perfect place to live in but a place where one could feel their own happiness and satisfaction. Now, I am nowhere to go and no one to run to. I am nowhere to found and nowhere to hide. My heart wants to burst and shout the pain that undergo inside. I feel that any moment in time someone would harass me and put me to shame. When this day comes the people I cared and loved hopefully will reach their hands and pull me from the dying body.There will never be tomorrow if you neglect today. What is happening is a sort of a trial, a challenge, or somewhat a test to who really am I. I am asking myself what I have done wrong to experience the pain, what have I done erroneously, that made me suffer a lot. I was just trying to put my motives into its way, good motives as it may seem, but time wont allow me to do so. All my mistakes and all my faults were already admitted and felt sorry for everything. Facing the consequences of my actions are the hardest part of my life, I barely even have the courage to face someone or somebody in front of me. No time and space for proving myself. And no room for another chance.Drowned in a middle of nowhere. Escaped from the darkness of hell. Damned to those who didn’t care. But exultation to the people who dare. So why would I possibly despair where I know in the end there are still people who are willing to conquer the world with me and will give me more reasons to be happy and live accordingly.Alone or not alone, what is important is the idea that you know you are right and you know that whether the world turns against you, look above, there is a hand willing to pull you up and put you down to where you belong.

Why in the world that when you learn to love somebody it is also the time to set the person free. Too much ironies in life but why not make it lesser for love. I felt guilty not showing how much I care for the person I love. I took advantage of his love and now I regret the day I deny him in front of the crowd. I despise myself for causing him so much pain. He did his part making me the most important person of his life but I neglected all his actions. It took me a lot of courage to make break-ups real. The reason of this move is that I am guilty of my faults, mistakes and pain I’m causing him. Honestly, the memories are still there. I can still feel the heat of his love wrapping into my arms. I can still smell the aroma of his body moving towards me. And I can still taste the sweetness of his lips enticing mine to love him more than everyone could ever know. The pictures lasts but the memories wont… Every time I look into the past opening the chapter of my life with him being part of it, tears fall down from my eyes flowing into my cheeks and my hands trying to catch it up before it will go. To cry for the person you truly love is something undeniable. Crying is the only way to outburst my emotions. He left me empty-handed. With no reasons to return. No crossroads to cross. And no roads to block. Sometimes we have to forget the person we did love. In life we live, we learn, we love, and then we move on. That’s the process of it. Life goes on no matter what happens, no matter how it causes you, and no matter what and how it changes you and your life only to survive the imperial world. Sad. But true.

Sometimes people come into your life and you know right away that they were meant to be there, to serve some sort of purpose, teach you a lesson, or help you figure out who you are or who you want to become.You never know who this people maybe (possibly your officemate, neighbor, long lost friend, lover, or even a complete stranger), but when you lock eyes with them, you know that at any moment they will affect your life in some profound way.And sometimes things happen to you that may seem horrible, painful, and unfair at first, but in reflection you find that without overcoming those obstacles you would have never realized your potential, strength, willpower, or heart.Everything happens for a reason. Nothing happens by chance or by means of good luck. Illness, injury, love, lost moments of true greatness, and sheer stupidity all occur to test the limits of your soul.Without these small tests, whatever they may be, life would be like a smoothly paved, straight, flat road to nowhere. It would be safe and comfortable, but dull and utterly pointless.The people you meet who affect your life, and the success and downfalls you experience, help to create who you are and who you become. Even the bad experiences can be learned from. In fact, they are probably the most poignant and important ones. If someone hurts you, betrays you, or breaks your heart, forgive them for they have helped you learn about trust and the importance of being cautious when you open your heart.If someone loves you, love them back unconditionally, not only because they love you, but in a way, they are teaching you to love and to open your heart and eyes to things.Make everyday count. Appreciate every moment and take from those moments everything that you possibly can for you may never able to experience it again. Talk to people that you have never talked to before, and actually listen. Let yourself fall in love, break free, and set your heights high.Hold your head up coz you have every right to.Tell yourself that you are a great individual and believe in yourself, for if you don’t believe in yourself, it will be hard for others to believe in you.You can make your life anything you wish. Create your own life and then go out and live it with absolutely no regrets.Most importantly, if you love someone let it be known…Given a LIFE is a blessing… living a life is a choice.